Elegantly wasted !

This post has been on hold for the past 2 months for that is how long I have been without doing anything much other than writing test cases and debugging (in case you are wondering it is the only technical term that people can associate me with these days) ! Gone are the days when I tried to understand some programs or a number conundrum ! Still a novice in my field of work and I already spite the work , the people around me , the work place , the cattle class food that I am served for lunch, the perpetual boredom , the subjugation (which does not alter the fact that I am out of a college(partially)) , my personal computer in office (which requires a nut punch to boot) ! Oh my bad...I have to mention the only good thing in this cradle of utmost atrocity - the long weekends (yes I have Saturdays off) ! Its a matter of self-realization that kills me right now ! Those who know me also know that one thing , I am not a cynic ! But this seems to be the only way to vent my feel of guilt - Take the Cabbage Avatar . I am right now coined as a person following a banal career path ! Successful may it be but what is the point when it contradicts all of my convictions ! It all starts with an honest effort to do your best but slowly you are reduced to a minion because that is when you realize working does not pay much in these organizations ! I may be direly wrong but I cannot stop thinking about my potential being wasted ! All this work for a meager remuneration which ( I empathize with ) my friends have to give away along with a little more from their parent's pockets to pay their advance and monthly rent in a few absurd deserted places...thats a whole different story within this loop of agony! ( essence of fragmentation :P) I could just get out and indulge myself in some 'whacked out sport' ! The joy ephemeral as it may be but worth all the risk , money and time ! I could do my bit in this panoramic world of music..a tribute to all those years I spent learning ( tried :P) ! I could do so much that I cannot fathom..only if I had the time (not that I lack the enthusiasm) ! To think that being ambitious deepens the laceration ! This is not only for me but to all those who feel the same and I am quite positive there are many ! On a positive note now I am more inspired towards my goal ! Moreover it is a good learning experience ! Its a filtering exercise ! This particular field I must say is pretty much off course but in demand....its good for those who enjoy destruction and re-creation but after 4-5 years of slog ! Not for the experimental ones like myself ! As I had quoted before , someone once told me - "your first job is always the wrong one" ! Now I know why !
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